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I left 5 years ago without a second thought. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do.

While the last five years have been hell in court and I sometimes feel like I’ve failed my daughter somehow I then look back and think ok I’m not near in the situation I was before. I can handle this if I made it through that! I left with nothing but the support of my family with $200.00 in my bank account but I made it.

I worked two jobs for a long time and finally got to the point where I could quit the second job in the evenings. I took control over a lot of things in my life, my home, my work, my family, my health and my fitness. Working to be a better me is my constant goal. I work a full time job and started a business that I work on in the evenings and weekends related to fitness making as much or as little as I need to. I’ve also been able to help others just like me and give them the tools to make their own businesses by joining my team. I TOOK control back. I had to. And again while my struggle has been far from easy I’m finally getting there.

I still fear my ex, the court system has most recently failed me, but I have to look forward to a better future for me and my daughter. I will not let him make me into what I used to be. At exchanges of our child I want to look at him and say all those times you told me I was fat and gross, then that I was too skinny when I was killing myself to be what he wanted, now I’m healthy. I lost 12 lbs and 14 inches in the last 8 weeks alone. I have come out of my shell and enjoy not only my day job but the fact that I have branched out and am able to talk to so many people and have a little confidence.

In reading all your posts from others there are days I want to give up but just know you are worth it, there are better things coming your way and you can survive! Five years later I have to wake up every day and tell myself this because you will have good days and bad.