You Will Never Again Abuse Me Emotionally

I never wanted to be apart of a life that was founded on sin, confusion, stress, pride and oppression.

This man expected a woman to be his God. He tried to justify his laziness to not work. Him and his family tried to justify the emotional and psychological abuse that they used through manipulation, intimidation, control and threats.

I look back and was fooled into believing lies. The church was always there to tell the truth. This is the most evil situation I’ve ever experienced. A man and his family trying to justify deception, idols and abuse.

Another reservation I had was the fact that I did not have kids and I gave my self years to prepare myself for somebody that actually deserved me. Him and his family definitely did not deserve me. They are driven by arrogance, confusion, stress, early death and stupidity. They think that they are this and that and I look at them and see misery, depression and chaos. I’m so grateful that I know God, even when it’s pathetic that I’m around people that claim to know God that are 5 to 45 years older than me that know nothing of God’s blessings and do not have regard for anybody else’s feelings or life accept theirs. They were never gonna convince me of their beliefs that were not biblically based.

The whole relationship was founded on self-centered wills, pressure to achieve unrealistic extreme demands that would not be healthy for any human. I am so glad that I saw it early. I did what God wanted me to do, not what you wanted me to do and in your evil mind that makes me a person who is not a Christian. You do not even know what a Christian is. I had to fight against you, your abuse, your demons, your deception and your sexual and demonic idols.

I saw straight through them using their morals and values to try and justify sin and evil. I realized that they were experts at emotional and psychological abuse that they would further use to lie and put it on somebody else, while you never come clean in your role of starting the whole catstrophe.

I realized that they had a covenant with demons to keep somebody’s death alive by tormenting my life in a perverted, demonic and disgusting way.
I knew I did not owe anybody’s past anything. I was never gonna allow them to feed me lies and take away God’s best out of my life. I know God created me to live in my memory only. I am me and I do not owe anybody’s past anything!

They were so blind by their selfish ambitions and believed lie after lie.
They did everything they could do to destroy and discredit everything that God wanted built.

They were hypocrties, trying to give all this advice about a blended family when you do not have one yourself. I never promised him I would engage in his mom and sister’s homosexual idols of pictures and beds in my relationship. He admitted to me that he would never date somebody with kids, you are an evil hypocrite, you actually have kids, you are pursuing women that you do not deserve, you want somebody to have your nasty baggage but you’re not willing to have somebody else’s, you’re a hypocrite.

I realized they were in this fantasy world of dating for years and then getting married. That does not work for this man. He is the kind that needs to go ahead and get married because he is too sexual! Thinking he’s gonna stay from sex for years and then marry, you’re fooling yourself! I thought that we would be on a healthy plan of understanding and help from the church to plan a holy relationship and wedding. NO! Instead what happened was me being lied to and coerced into deception and manipulation while being pregnant, being abused and deceived into a birth that with the correct information could have avoided my baby being born out of wedlock without God’s blessings on a date that is directly connected to his nasty disgusting perverted past. Me and my baby being attacked by demons and having a certificate with a date on it that was founded on abuse, lies and the idolatry of a dead person I want absolutely nothing to do with!

I was grateful for a counselor that listened to me. She understood what I was actually experiencing. She understood that all of this abuse was going on for years, before and after the evil deception at the hospital. I realized the elaborate hoax to try and justify evil! I realized that they were experts at emotional and psychological abuse. I realize that they try and justify their abuse with lies and intimidation. He nor his family takes responsibility and apologizes. It was never about just your kids! It was about God, what we agreed to, communication, honesty and holiness, not your parents and sister’s opinions and nasty demonic covenants.

I never in my life thought I would meet people claiming to be Christians and justifying the abuse and oppression of a woman to the point of a deceitfully evil birth out of wedlock and trying to use everything in their power to justify a baby being born out of wedlock and boasting and being prideful of their evil ways!

My daughter will have the opportunities that I never did. I will be by her side to make sure somebody’s past or family does not take advantage of her or make her feel guilty for not wanting to be around them or making her be coerced into lies, deceit and manipulation. They are so full of pride, lies and arrogance. They have a puny life in a small town were they engage in a ridiculous amount of sports. These sports are not putting food on our table. Your priorities are a disaster! If you’re using sports to put food on the table fine, but you can limit that so you can actually provide for your family!

You’re blinded by your self ambitions. Be a real man, go get an education, go and do useful research to provide for a family instead of being lazy, having a pity party, complain every day and tear the people down around you!

Nobody in their right mind would have lived the way his family tried to force me. It was extremely bizarre and disgusting. I have not received an apology after years of all of this abuse. I was grateful for a counselor that listened to me. She understood what I was actually experiencing. She understood that all of this abuse was going on for years, before and after the evil deception at the hospital. I know that I can only depend on God and the people that will actually listen and hear what has really gone on. I know that my prayers and will has been protecting me. I can not believe that I met such disgusting and evil people.

What I’ve learned and am warning anybody who reads this:
Do not allow somebody’s mother to control your household through their thoughts and feelings that are founded in lies, deception, pride, arrogance, selfishness, idolatry and confusion. Do not marry into a family who has tried to justify manipulation, blaming, Shaming, Name-calling, Insults, Put-downs, Infantilization, Trivializing, Triangulation, Sabotage, Gas lighting, Scapegoating, Blame-shifting, Projection, Ranking and comparing, threatening harm. Do not date a man who threatens to call the police and put you in jail to try and control you. Do not date a man who purposely creates arguments and confrontations for evidence against you. Do not date a man who refused to run to the church but runs to their family. Do not date a man who tries to justify lies and deception. Do not date a man who tries to justify not working. Do not date a man who tries and justifies living off of benefits instead of money he has actually earned. Do not date a man who tries and justifies not marrying you when you are pregnant with his child. Do not date a man who refuses to meet your family but expects you to be close to his. Do not date a man who does not take your words and feelings seriously. Do not date a man who tries to justify not earning a livable and realistic wage. Do not date a man who tries to justify an unhealthy stressful lifestyle. Do not date a man who tries to justify emotional abuse. Do not date a man who tries to justify giving up on life, responsibilities, and God’s principals just because he experienced a life crisis. Do not date a man who tries to justify putting unrealistic extreme demands on you daily. Do not date a man who talks down to you and over you. Do not date a man who expects you to be responsible for them financially when they refuse to find other methods of making money.

Do not date a man who expects you to be responsible for them emotionally. Do not date a man who expects you to be responsible for them morally. Do not date a man who tries to justify putting the responsibility of their past on you. Do not date a man or marry into a family who tries to justify you being involved with their past in unwanted and disgusting ways. Do not date a man who or marry into a family that tries to justify forcing beliefs and lifestyles on you that you are uncomfortable with and that are not biblicly based. Do not date a man who cares only about pride, sex, money and pleasing their family. Do not date a man who actively used marijuana 20 to 40 times a day. Do not date a man that refused to surrender to the holy spirit. Do not get involved with a family who loves their idols, sin and abuse more than they care an inkling about you and your life. Never trust a man to be an equal partner financially, emotionally, morally, and with parental roles who is blinded by their miserable life of stress.

Do not be close to people whose lives, emotions and wills are not aligned with God and yours. Do not allow a man to convince you that he will treat you right when his actions are just the opposite. Do not allow somebody’s mother to talk down to you. Do not allow somebody’s mother to call you names. Do not date a man and marry into a family who does not view and see you how God does. Do not date a man and be in his family that refuses to listen to and line up with the bible and pastor’s advice. Do not date a man and marry into a family that do not want God’s best in your life.

Stay away from people who refuse to apologize and continue in abuse, lies and deception. Do not allow a family to try and justify deception, betrayal, sin and a toxic lifestyle that tries to be forced on you. I never agreed to serve their demonic idols. I never agreed to live a life of sin. I never agreed to live a life of confusion. I wanted nothing to do with him, his mom and sister’s homosexual views and perverted ways! I felt like these people gave me aids spiritually. They are and were experts at trying to justify deception, manipulation, sin, confusion, control and betrayal. They made elaborate plans to try their best to destroy me and my daughter with their lies and idols. They tried to destroy me with their pride, arrogance and extreme demands. They tried their hardest to put me below where God has assigned me.

I know I won’t ever be apologized to for their evil. They are so blinded by their lies, they do not realize God’s ways. They all have the ability to find the truth and get answers, but they love their sin and evil more. I do not have a relationship with his mom because of her verbal and psychological abuse. They have never fooled me with their lies and deception. They can try and continue being emotionally and psychologically abusive believing and living lies, I will never have any part of it!

This truly is the most evil situation I’ve ever experienced. The amount of deception, pride, arrogance and abuse is unbelievable! He laughs and tries to justify his insanity because he is too lazy to get up and work. You’re not killing me and sending me to an early grave because you believe and live lies. I want no part of you and your families idols of pride, stupidity, confusion, dumbness, stubborness and sin! His priorities were always off. His priorities were busyness, sports, laziness and complaining. His priorities should have been church groups, relationship building, a healthy plan for everybody, communication and God’s ways.

I do not admire or want anything to do with his family. Their lifestyle represents lies, foolishness and misery. Don’t ever let somebody’s mother control and manipulate your life. All his mother taught was sin, lies and homosexuality. She wasn’t teaching me her destruction! She needed to get and stay away from me! They represent a hamster wheel of lies, stupidity, misery, depression, unhappiness and early death. You can die a sad, miserable life and neglect your health, but I’m not!

Be involved in all these sports because of your pride and lies, who cares! You and your family are toxic, so rightfully I stay far away! I’m not neglecting you, you refuse to accept the truth, you aren’t bringing all of that sin and confusion in my life. I rightfully will forever protect my daughter and myself from you and your family! Your extrenuous demands aren’t taking my life early!

I will no longer ever again be raped, psychologically or physically. You will never again threaten me! You will never again force me into sex! You will never again deceive me! You will never again abuse me emotionally, spiritually and psychologically! You will never again allow your family’s demonic opinions and lifestyle disrupt this family! You will never again allow unhealthy, evil, selfish, perverted people to dictate our relationship and union with God!

I pray for protection from them! They did everything in their power to destroy what God intended! No more! I will never again have my keys taken away from me! I will never again have my phone taken away from me! You will never abuse me or my daughter ever again! You will never again intimidate and manipulate me inside or outside of church.

You will never again talk down to me! You and your family are scheming evil people that elaborately put the blame on somebody else, taking yourself out of responsibility. Well you do not fool me! I’ve learned to protect me and my daughter spiritually and naturally. I’ve learned to protect me and my daughter legally.

This was never about the boys, it was always about God, healthy relationships, truth, honesty, communication, marriage and spritual protections. The boys were no more important than God, healthy relationships, truth, honesty, communication, marriage and spritual protections.

I’ve learned to get far away and free from you and your family’s demonic idol of the past. Want nothing to do with her! I respect your past, not worship it! Not look at it! Not be in the same house with it! Not talk about it! Nothing but respect, that is your and God’s responsibility, the only responsibility I have is to acknowledge and live in truth to God and his principals, not you and your family preferences!

I serve God, not you, your family and yall’s nasty evil idol from the past! My daughter and I will forever and always live in my memories only! Nobody is getting me twisted with somebody’s nasty past, nobody! Me and my daughter were always separate from your past, don’t drag your mess into our life!

I was and will never be living for demons.

I was and will never be apart of worship and missing, no! Accept that the past is the past, move on and stay moved on. I don’t owe your past anything and neither does my daughter!

Jasmine O.